Public speaking for writers can often come with fear and dread. Well in my case anyway. I love writing but public speaking terrifies me. Even reading my work aloud is a chore. When I started with my writing group back in March I couldn’t even read out loud to the other women in the group and I would often ask one of the other ladies to read what I had written.
I thought about not doing a blog post today. I thought very seriously about it and I was ready to give up on this 30 day blog challenge. I am having one of those days, well one of those weeks really, where I just don’t want to do anything. I feeling deflated, frustrated with life, and just fed up. I don’t know why but I just am, and you know what, that’s okay because it happens to everyone.
Today I want to talk about social media and how distracting it can be. More to the point, I’m want to talk about Facebook. So here goes. I’m Amanda and I’m a Facebook Addict. God, just typing that makes me realise just how much of my time is wasted on this social media platform. Take today for instance. I turned my laptop on just after 9am when the kids went to school. I was just doing my normal check, looking at notifications, posting to pages, and my writer group. Yep, that’s what I said to myself anyway. It’s a lie. Facebook is my number one procrastination tool. It’s always there and always at hand whenever I want to waste some time. In recent months, it seems to have escalated though and when I found myself still scrolling at 12.20pm, I knew it was time to make a change.
Following on from my last post about handling criticism today and want to talk about doing what you love and enjoying it. I love to write and I enjoy doing it too but that doesn’t mean I go for my dreams and goals all the time. I’m learning though and that is the main thing. Sometimes it’s all about focus and mindset and this has been a stumbling block for me. One negative criticism and I found myself ditching my writing and sitting down in front of the TV watching mind numbing crap. Why? I felt I wasn’t good enough. I shouldn’t be spending my time writing fiction or poetry because I’m no good at it. I’m sure many of you can relate. When that little voice inside gets a hold, your dreams can wilt very quickly.
Today was the first day in two weeks that I put pen to paper and wrote something new. The reason, I was learning how to deal with criticism. I decided a couple of weeks ago to get a professional critique on two of my poems. These were poems that were rejected for publication so I thought they would perfect to send off. My reason behind the professional critique was that I really want to have a book of poetry published by an Irish publisher. I love poetry and for me it is one of the easiest things to write. I can pen a poem in a matter of minutes and I really love it.
If you want to know how to change your life, the first thing you need to do is be true to yourself. Being true to ourselves is something that many find difficult to do. We let other people’s opinions and words sway our judgement and take us away from our own inner truth. We look outside for answers. We look to change others or expect others to complete us.
Today on my blog I wanted to share some spiritual musing with everyone. If you have read my about me page you will know that I love the Law of Attraction and follow a lot of the spiritual teachings of people like Wayne Dyer, Esther Hicks, etc. I am a big fan of Hay House and the books they publish too. While I was thinking about what to post on my blog today, I came across a document on my laptop called “Spiritual Musing”. After reading through it, I felt it would be appropriate for my blog today. I hope you enjoy it.
I have taken the day off work today to celebrate. My daughter, Emma, aged 12 attended an awards ceremony this morning and I have to admit, I am beaming with pride. Emma and her entire class took part in the Navan Education Centre Write A Poem 2016 competition along with other schools from Co. Meath and Co. Louth. She won the female entry for her school and we were invited to attend the award’s ceremony this morning where she was presented with a certificate and a copy of the published anthology that features her poem and the picture she drew to accompany it.
Today as I am writing my blog post, the sun is shining, and the church bell is chiming to let me know it’s 12:00. The thought of sitting inside writing all day is deflating. I can hear the school children, cheering each other on – it’s sports day today and I have promised my children I will come across to the football field to watch them at lunch time. It is on days like this that I hate the fact that I have to work. I know I work for myself and can take the time off, but I just seem to be so busy lately. It happens every now and again and I feel it building, the resentment, the boredom, and the longing to be working on my own writing. Today though I have to put those feelings aside and catch up on the work that pays my bills.